so the first month of my junior year is complete..
already its been a lot more stressful early on than sophmore year was. but at the same time its really not all that much harder...the work isnt at least. but the overall task of getting everything completed on time and so forth is much much more difficult for me this year, not because of my classes but bc of me.. for some reason i just cant seem to get my motivation and determination that i had last year. it instead comes in waves - everything seems to now adays - waves of frustration with people and work, waves of exhaustion, waves of determination, waves of emotion -- its ridiculous... definately not something i'm used to. its actually incredibly infuriating. because everything is SOO much harder this way and its the middle of the 6th wk of school now and i STILL cant manage to get back into my grove. i need prayer right now.. lots of it too.. i need to be in the word a heck of a lot more too. but i'm just so stressed out and i dont care about anything - i just wanta crawl into bed, yank the covers over my head and sleep for ever... its awful. i have a D in physics right now and that's killing me - i dont get D's in classes. i dont even get B's nowadays. to have a D -- its driving me insane. but physics just doesnt make sense to me, and so far all explainations havent helped at all.. now is when i rly miss chemistry.. it was hard and i didnt like it last year but i was good at it and that made everything easier - i just comprehended the concepts and so forth much quicker. physics and spanish 3 are giving me the hardest time.. but i cant drop them. [for various reasons i dont feel like elaborating on at the moment]. but i guess the point of this entry is that i'm immensely stressed, i have no patience for anything, and its only the first month of school.. please please keep me in your prayers right now bc i'm rlyyy struggling.. and i dont want this year to be spent being exhausted, and delerious and annoyed, its my last year of high school with some really close friends [seniors] and i want to be able to savor and enjoy my junior year - my last year with one of my best friends..
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10 years ago
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girl, I will be praying for you. I know just about exactly how a lot of that feels. I was feeling pretty much the same a couple of weeks ago. I wasn't getting ANY schoolwork done, I felt tired, frustrated, angry. I felt pretty hopeless. I just didn't care about anything. Like you said, all I wanted to do was crawl into bed and sleep forever. Eventually it just got to the point where I knew I COULD NOT go on like that any longer. I knew I needed to just get on my knees and pray. I didn't really want to, but I knew I had to, and with some encouragement from my bff, I did. And it helped so much immediately...
Thats all I can tell you, is just take some time alone by yourself, get on your knees, and just pray, with all your heart. I will be praying for you too.
Love, Karina
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