how to be overwhelmed..

step one: have fun all summer long and stay busy
step two: have high expectations for everything

step three: get involved in..1, 2, 3.. 5 or more extra ciricular activities and stay involved in them

step four: take 5 or more AP classes
step five: make sure you cant shake the feeling of wanting to just not do anything and sleep
now.. you are overwhelmed. congrats :]

lol. welcome to bekahs life.. *sigh* so im not sure what my deal is but i cant find my groove of pure determination with school again. i mean im still devoted in my work i guess but im not happy about it. im not determined - im just sucked into guilt of being a procrastinator so i try to avoid getting behind.. like for example - i would rather do just about anything else in the world than summer reading assignments for english. i can deal with the school junk of right now, but all the junk from last year is haunting me. lol. i just do NOT want to do it at all - its ridiculous and an insane amount of work. Then i have to go and think about organizing things for Student Council, practicing and getting better at softball, getting back in shape, pitching practice, maintaining a good grade in classes i have noww, doing all the prerequisites for getting my gold award in girl scouts, thinking about NHS, and still trying to hang out and have fun because its what i really miss and want right now. soo yeah. i mean idk, this time last year i wouldnt have been complaining about all that i had goin on at all and i had almost as much then too.
*deep breath* i need mucho prayer that ill get back into my groove from last year. because with no determination or whatever and just the feeling of 'ughhhh..!' school is SOO hard LET me tell you! haha. i miss how i was last year :[[[ gr.
well at least the stuco mini retreat today went well.. got some good pics too :]

showing the freshmen and new members the StuCo clap

'08-'09 officers whoop whoop!

Mr. President.

my grouupp

Perla, leah and zach [the good twin haha]

messin around at lunch.. lol

like i said haha